.Sunday, August 3, 2008 ' 4:20 AM Y
i've spent alot of time changing my background for my blog and i feel so awake now..see the time now.. ohh dear, i think i no need to slp tonight..hahhas.. tml comfirm slping the whole day. anyway, i gt some help from lizzy and she was talking to me now..hahahs.. first time she teach me so patiently WITHOUT vomiting blood.=D tks alot,gal. so how was my blog? izzit okay for the cursor? anway feel free to drop CONSTRUCTIVE COMMENTS..tks~!!! hahass..
heard both love situation from my 2 best frens and i shall not say who..
YOU KNOW I KNOW~!!!
they seem to be caught in love situation leading a miserable live but to me, it still does not change my opinion of falling in love. i feel that it is a sweet and memorable experience which i wish to have it very soon. i was searching for my true love very long but it does not seem to be coming in my way. many people said i am young now so just wait for it to come without rush. the problem is, majority ppl started to run already but i was still learning on how to crawl. tat was how pathetic i am now. perhaps i do not have any love affinity in my life. but i am willingly to exchange time to true love. which means, ppl have many experiences of love but unable to find the true love, i hoped i would find the ONLY ONE and ONCE FOR ALL..
have you came across smth tat when u yearn for the person's attention, but he/she don wanna give. you hoping for it, waiting for very long.. at the end you didn't get it. but once tat person had hurt you badly, you wouldn't want it anymore and tat person started to do the things that you once had wished for.. feelings has lost means lost. it is unable to find back the feeling unless time can turn back but it was impossible. start to cherish the person you loved, once they have gone, you have no time to regret. frankly speaking, in my whole life, i admit i didn cherish tat person(A) well. i vented my anger on A whenever i was in bad mood. however A still stayed beside me, encourage me, giving me advise,comsole me whenever i met any difficulties. but when A left me, i started to cherish and appreciate what A has done to me. i regretted for treating A tat way but is useless now. A hurt me deeply for tat incident. up still now, there was a deep scar left behind. no matter how hard i try to remove, it kept on flooding on my mind. i didn mean to keep raking up the past but it just stayed forever in my mind. and now, the feeling of the past and now is diff whenever i was with A . the things A did, i would get angry in the past, but now, i don seem to mind/bother abt it. so does this counted as gd or bad cause i changed my attitude towards A for not venting my anger for A anymore? i guess is a gd thing bahx..
i dun wish to be a back-up or a subsitute of anyone. i HATED to be, but ppl seems to find me as their subsitution of another person. how deeply they have hurt me once at tat moment, i sweared tat i would not bothered abt them anymore if they come back to look for me. but as time goes by, my heart would jus melt after hearing their pathetic story. and i would jus go and care abt them again. now, i feel how lonliness was like, it was so terrible and i wish it can be driven away ASAP. so nv ever abandon elderly to the old folks, beware of getting retribution.=D
Majority people would feel life is so boring. i heard many ppl saying tis statement to be and i was 100% agreed to it. i feel that life is so boring cause my daily routine is always the same , No curiosity. No surprises, No life at all. always doing the same thing in my daily. when i had lessons in sch, i feel so boring,sianzation hoping for holiday approaching. but when comes to holiday, i feel boring and sianzation too hoping sch would faster reopen. tat is how contradicting i am. no matter studying or working, it is just so boring and bland. tasteless~
on the contrary, some people would feel life is so meaningful. who will think so? ppl who are in love and feel loves everywhere. why do they find meaningful? cause their life would always have SURPRISES,CURIOSITY, LOVES. they would live on to see what will happen next for every moment and every minute they do. so cherish your live well and for what you have now.lose it and tat's it for your whole life. its just within control in your own hand.
***Please do not come and ask me who i am referring to cause i didn particularly saying anyone i was saying general except A is my personal experience and i don wish to reveal=D.
