.Saturday, November 8, 2008 ' 9:01 PM Y
i just had a chat with xiaomeii on the phone.. i feel bad making her cry over the phone.. im sorry.. i didn mean it.. seeing u and him nt happy, makes me feel unhappy too.. i dunno how to help you all.. it makes me feel so helpless.. few days didn see each other ONLY, and it happens alot of things.. i just hope that everything will be fine.. a happy ending..relationships, to me now, i feel that love is not as sweet as i think and breaks up is not as bitter as i tot.. im gonna hang on for another 1-2 weeks.. if i feel tat there's nthing for me worth carrying on, i would not waste any more time.. anw, i just did it purely for fun and gaining experiences.. i always tot it is a very sweet thing falling in love.. i had a very high expectations on it.. i wanna it to be like all those in the fairy tales but i wan to be reality.. i feel that r/s are tough to go, but will get my happiness at the end of it.. so romantic right?? okkay, i noe im very orbit, but i just love tis kind of style.. i didn like to be tied down, but i wish he will tied me.. he starts to make some move ytd.. i feel so happy because it shows tat he cares and concern abt it..i can give alot of advice to ppl regarding r/s, but when its my turn, i feel so lost at it.. however, im very sure and clear for wad im doing now.. here, i would like to say a few things to them: to xiiaomei:its hard to find your true love in your life. do treasure it.. some ppl search for their whole lyfe, they still unable to find it.. follow your heart is the most accurate.. your path is tough, but i noe you're able to do it.. happiness is just right in front of you. tis time round, nv let it slip away from your hand again..to my the other friend:is tis guy worth sacrificing? if yes, do you feel any happiness??!!?? rbm, happiness is the most important and crucial role.. to me, i feel tat tis guy is just a J-E-R-K.. last time, i tot is tat i could nt accept the fact, tats why im despising him.. but now, i realised that actually its not.. i've known you for so long, i didn want you to suffer.. but, you didn wanna listen at all.. so wad's the point of saying and explaining to you so much?? let you have a good fall and you will learn.. tis will be the best way for ya, i guess..
