.Monday, December 1, 2008 ' 10:50 PM Y
ytd aft work, went to town with esther.. finally, i've gt the chance to watch QUARANTINE.. another version of REC that other ppl told me abt tat. its kinda lame and gross show.. documentary show, a human eating a human. or rather say a human acting like a mad dog attacking a normal person.. after tat, went shopping and dine in at pastamania.. i've had a very heavy meal aft my work. so i ate very little at pastamania. aft finishing our meal, we went home.. when i reached compass ard 1030pm plus, i suddenly feel like chilling with those guys.. and i also rbm-ed tat they were having a pizza feast after their work ytd.. hehe, i didn join them.. so we chill until 11pm plus and finally reached home. at tat point, my stomach feels damn squeezy and like oilly inside it. i feel so much uncomfortabilty.. yucks man! makes me feel like puking and stomachache.. however, how much i feel like, im unable to puke out nor feel like shitting out too.. on whole, i was just feeling unwell..when we were dining, we had some topics over our health and some guys stuffs. i know myself that i am so easily influence, but when i digest all of the informations and aft much thinking, i wouldn't feel tat way anymore. plus, i did some suvery qns on guys. okay, i should say i've asked 5guys almost give me a same ans while esther surveyed 1 guy had a different answer from those 5 guys. this makes me conclude that this guy only think on the surface/ appearance. which means it is unrealiable. wadever it is, i believed that i have my own uniqueness style which other dun have and strongly believe tat there will be someone out there who knows how to appreciate it. just like how my frens appreciates me.. tks to all my dear fren whom knows how to appreciate me.=D so lets move.. heard her story abt her ma ma makes me feel so worried abt my future.. i feared tat when im old and have many sickness, no one will be there to take care of me... so how?? i know its still long journey for me to reach tat day but i just had this kind of fear feeling.. and when i heard tat now we are facing economy recession which have been happened long ago and yet i jus found out ytd.. hahas.. i was so outdated! wadever! ohh ya, one more thing i gonna say is tat i strongly believe myself tat i have my own sense of fashion taste. i don give a damn shyt on how ppl concludes abt my dressing. as long as im comfortable wearing tat, who cares?!~ because im living for myself and not others. i wouldn't "wei qu" myself to fit into other ppl's norm. yeas~ im independent and im proud of it.. hahas.. but i just wish someone would reach their hands out when i needed a pair of ears and a muscular shoulder for me to pour everything out.
