.Thursday, April 30, 2009 ' 11:57 PM Y
i feel so so so irritated NOW...
her smile always give me tat feeling as if she was like mocking at me or despise-ing me! i hate it.. perhaps its i think too much or wad, but i just cant help feeling this way.. i dunno why whenever she appears in front of me, i would just suddenly flare up my temper and sometimes i would feel so lost, dunno wad to do next.. i simply hate this feeling! a promise she once made in the ppt as evidence, she just broke it as if its nobody business..i trusted her so much, how could she hurt me just lidat?!? being harmed by closer ppl ard you hurts deeply..how true it is!i guess you will nv ever know i fear to hopby your blog because after reading the contents, i feel so empty for no reasons. however, i knew the day when she make tat promise is filled with sincerity and integrity but why she don hold her promise just like before? have she ever put herself into my shoe?? she will never ever understand my feeling because she's capable of hurting someone's feeling!
Fruitty Day will be coming, i doubt there's any celebration gg on.. anw, forget abt it cause its meaningless starting from today. i swear this would be the last time i will be posting abt this person, last time having any unrelated contacts! last but not least, i will try HARD to earse this day and this person!
i dunno whether she would ever read this post. but one thing im very sure is that even though you had read it and wanting to make any amends, its too late.. cause i no longer can accept it.. and i think my BIGGEST regret in my life is to enter into RP same as you!
i've finished venting out my anger! i hate to express out my feelings because i don like ppl to know how i felt especially an emo side of me.. i know tis post reflects out all my negative side and all my weakness, but then its very hard to suppress this stupid, irritating, suxs feeling. and i've tolerate it for few mths.. my patient has reached the max and slowly turning into volcano which is gg to erupt.. caution, don touch my tails..
